My Defeat
May 12th, 2005
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
I see my life flashes
As your dagger thrusts
Never lost a battle in this war
Won every single battle
Conquered your heart
Brought you endless love
& much more
But from the look of your eyes
From the tune of your voice
I have doubts
I lost
I lost you
I lost the war
I descend my throne
I lay down my crown
& kneel
You always came first
I always came last
Order me your majesty
Your wish is my command
My army fell down to their feet
I heard them scream
"You are invincible!
You are the king!
You are invincible!
Rise!
Rise up, our king!"
Listen to me love
My heart is to speak
You’re not only my love
You’re beyond my wildest dreams
You’re everything I could ask for
You’re my love
You’re my life
You’re my soul
No I am not dying!
You see my heart burn
Screaming at my feat
No I am not crying!
You see my eyes burn
Flaming from the heat
It was a war for love
And in love was my defeat
It was a war for a new life
A life I never had, you brought to me
Alive but dead now I witness my defeat
Never been a war like this
Never been such love in myths
You believed in your principles
I believed in you
I believed in love
that conquers all
No you won’t see me cry
I won’t shed a tear
I’ll swallow my pride
I'll run
Run away & disappear
I’ll order my army to retreat
I’ll withdraw my fleet
And ride my horse
in a heart beat
Carry me, Pegasus!
Carry me to no man’s land
Fly
Take your feet off the ground
No, you won’t see me cry!
But my tears will come in disguise
As rain, dew
or still clouds in the sky
My heart is dying
Ripped from my chest
Crucified for its defeat
You’ll see it every sunrise
You’ll see it flame the east
And when the sun sets at night
You’ll see it turn red from the heat
Oh God
Have mercy
It’s a black day
It’s the day of my defeat!
...by Hassaan Abdeen