Self-Denial
April 18th, 2005
Once again I leave in silence
Although I didn’t want to leave
I smoke & drive in madness
Although you never want so to be
You don’t know what love is
But you sense my love to thee
In public you hug & kiss
And in private you make love to me
You say you don’t love me
But your eyes say you’re mine
You say you just like me
But I know you live in self-denial
You say you can easily dump me
But your eyes say you lie
You say for now you want me
But one day you’ll say good-bye
Tomorrow you might leave me
Or simply my heart dies
But what if tomorrow never comes?
What if your love thrives?
Would you admit it?
Or still live in self-denial?
Would you become committed?
Or still make me cry?
I see your eyes full of desire
I feel your heart reaching for me
Still you live in self-denial
And hide your feelings from me
You say you are not like this
This love is not meant to be
But who are we to question love
or disagree?
Should I believe your words?
Or should I trust your eyes?
Should I let my mind rule?
Or should I let my heart try?
Still I have no control
No matter what I decide
Every morning I love you more
And every new day becomes a prize
You never saw me run
Let me run from thee
Maybe then & only then
You’d say stop!
I love you
Just stop!
& commit to me…
...by Hassaan Abdeen